Let's Talk Pregnancy

I didn't start this blog until Raelyn was 5 1/2 months, so many of my hardest days have already happened. So, I guess I would like to go back a little and talk about my journey. I think it would be therapeutic. So let's start with...Pregnancy.

Like I said in my previous post, I always wanted to have kids. I also wanted to spend like 5 years with my husband in sweet bliss. :). I believe that if you are living righteously, the Lord has a funny way of putting you on His plan for you. I believe it was the Lord who changed my mind about having children earlier. I was very set in my ways before we got married. Kids were in the distant future. Little by little I felt better and better about being a mom. I'm not saying the Lord took my agency, cause that's not possible. But he did the closest thing to it! :) He gave me impressions that having children was a good thing. So, six months into our marriage we started talking about it. We went back and forth and back and forth, and then we just felt right about it.

In the second week of December, I got really sick. Deathly sick, I'm pretty sure the thought crossed my mind, "This is the end, I'm going to die, I haven't even "lived" yet." (Okay, so I'm a little dramatic, which is probably where my daughter gets it from. But HEY! dramatic people make the world interesting.) On the 3rd night of being so sick, I couldn't move, we decided to go to the ER. They did a bunch of tests, which amounted to "we don't know what you have, go home, sleep, and drink lots of water, and, oh yeah, here's a $13,000 bill." The one thing we did find out was that I was Pregnant. I couldn't even be excited about it because I was in so much pain. Steven had a big smile on his face though, which made me happy.

I have to admit that I was very unknowledgeable about pregnancy. You've thought I would have read about all of this before getting into it, but again, this was supposed to be in my distant future. I thought that you felt fat, but you have a glowing bright light around you all the time, so you didn't care. Okay, maybe in pregnancy heaven.

This is pregnancy:
-For the first 3 months it's either feeling sick or being sick.
-You are also extremely tired for the first 3 months. I think I slept all of Christmas break.
-You have a range of emotions. For my dramatic self it was crying. About everything. If I saw a depressing movie, I cried for hours after, thinking my life or my little ones life was going to end up like that. I thank my husband for not laughing at me. (in the moment).
-You have a heightened sense of smell, so if you smell it, you most likely aren't going to eat it.
-You crave foods you didn't know were crave-able, and you stop liking foods you once loved.
-You swell, some people have the luxury of not swelling, that was not me. I could only wear flip flops, and I swore everyone was staring at my feet, which in turn made me cry. (Oh, my poor husband)
-You can't sleep. My sister, Randi, once said something along the lines of wanting to wake her husband just so he would have to be awake with her, and know how much sleep she wasn't getting.
-There are days where you just feel crappy, for no reason.
-You're fat. You literally can't see anything below your belly button, and you can't just bend over like a normal person.
-You also have to buy a whole new wardrobe.

I decided there were 3 things about pregnancy that I loved:
1. You could eat all time, and no one would question it. If they were a decent person.
2. If you were full, you did not have to worry about sucking it in. In fact, you could push it out.
3. I loved hearing my baby's heartbeat and feeling her move. It's crazy that there's something growing INSIDE you.

Now, there are lots of moms I know that had a way harder pregnancy than me, and even mom's who do not have the opportunity to be pregnant. For that reason, I know how much of a blessing it was to be pregnant. I wish I would have appreciated it more. Looking back in retrospect the baby is a lot easier in the womb then out, and frankly it's the easiest part of the whole having children process. In fact, I think pregnancy will be a lot easier the second time around. There are days that it royally sucked, but seeing a miracle witnessed when she or he comes out is beyond words. (It can also be overwhelming, in a good way.)

Happy Moment:
Since my happy moment of the day could come at 11:59 pm each day, I've decided to write the next day the happy moment of the previous day. So, yesterday(actually it was the other day, but I really wanted to share it), Steven and I went and played basketball. Raelyn was excited the WHOLE time. She was jumping up and down, making high pitched noises, the whole shebang. It was so cute. She just loves basketball, which makes her daddy really happy. Hopefully we got a baller! :)

Side note: Inspired by my sister, Randi, I am going to start a side bar called "Mom problems 101". Basically, little things that happen everyday that are problematic but also comedic. If you have any that I can post please comment, FB me, or email me. I love to hear other's moments.

What were some of your cravings during pregnancy? Or is there something different that you experienced during pregnancy?